Full-Blown Agony: My Battle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my one eye. Then came quick shocks, similar to electric shocks. As each class progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with severe discomfort around one eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually begin with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient healing records propose unusual remedies for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute treatment alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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